A motif, usually found in the context of music, can vary in length, but need to be long enough in order to be recognizable and to carry some kind of significance or thematic value.
I have been on a path of self-reflection, personal growth, and discovery over the last several years and have learned that there are many things about me that carry significance. Some are more important than others. Many things that are recognizable other than being a mom. I didn’t know what those were for such a long time. Yet, I had a big desire to wonder, wander, and learn. But I didn’t know how to live without the chaos. It was all I’ve ever known, and I was addicted to the struggle.
The main purpose of a motif is to draw attention to a theme, grab readers attention to the theme or underlying message.
It’s not my only theme. I’ve spent hours and hours journaling, reflecting, sitting in counselors and therapists’ offices, reading self-help novels, watching motivational videos, even meeting with a psychic to gain clarity about my life. If self-doubt was an Olympic sport, I would be a gold medalist. I took a lot of risks. I have hurt a lot of people, and I have helped a lot of people. I have put in so much work, time, effort and money to figure out that there are not a lot of stories like mine. But the answers to life that I needed were right in front of me.
Pay close attention to the story’s motifs. You may be more engaged on an intuitive level and start to understand that we are all humans on this earth just learning how to be humans. Do all the selfish things that take up the time to learn about yourself and TAKE CARE of yourself.
I have gone through most of my life making decisions that were not in the best interests of myself, the people I loved and cared about, and did not serve me well both professionally and personally. I have realized that as much as I would love to go back in time and fix my mistakes or change the experiences I did not like, I cannot do so, and I can only move forward.
You can be mad about my decisions or not agree with them and choose not to show support to me despite that. But this is the exact reason that I chose to, and did, cut a lot of people out of my life, including people in my own family.
I’d like to talk about my stories, my experiences, and things that I feel will help others. I have stories to tell of other people and as a student of psychology, I want to help those I’m learning from, use these tools to help others, and share information and knowledge so perhaps, someone can benefit from these stories as well.
I have never understood what anyone has to gain by making things harder, but I just knew how to live in that. Learning how to sit in discomfort has allowed me to make the changes that I so desperately needed to understand myself. Understanding that we are all human, and we should all be doing the selfish thing by taking care of ourselves first is the very reason we are on this planet. Find your purpose. Find your WHY. And continue with me on this journey of growth.
I am:: a Mom//39//live a Bi-Coastal Lifestyle//experienced in child and adult trauma//not your average hot mess.
I went from wanting to change my life, to deciding to change my life and live it on my terms.
Shattered Roots 
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